Life Changing Moments

Life changes so quickly, it’s difficult to keep up. Since I last posted I’ve had some major developments. Surgery was a pain in the ass. Correction, it was a pain in my whole body. Besides the fact that I had my meniscus repaired and my knee scoped, I’ve been sleeping on my futon for the past 4 weeks and my whole body is taking a toll. I’ve lost 15 pounds since my surgery, which isn’t too terrible because it was getting kind of difficult to fit in some of my jeans. I had to miss 2 full weeks of work, which has put me incredibly behind but I’ve pretty much caught up to the fullest extent. I declined to have mommy come take care of me, mainly because I thought I would be back at work in a few days. Cue two weeks later and I was barely hobbling to work. It’s very frustrating to be so helpless, but I feel that it was an incredible life lesson and I’ve grown an immense amount just by the sheer will of my mind sitting around for 2 weeks straight and having the desire to grow as a person. Which leads to me two gigantic developing situations…

School and Shannon.

Most of you who read this have a good idea of what happened to me with both situations, so I’ll spare the background. School is something I’ve wanted to complete since I moved to Indianapolis, but I hadn’t found the drive. Now I feel that I possess that drive after seeing how quickly the roadblocks of being degree-less will cement themselves in front of me in the business world. The issue now is, how do I earn this degree. Do I take the chance of earning a degree from an online university and having the stigma of not earning a real degree? Do I take more amiable job for a few years to complete my degree in a timely manner, or stretch out night and weekend classes over 5-6 years to receive said degree? What the hell do I want to major in anyways? All of these questions are not easily answered, I wish I wouldn’t have fucked up so bad in the first place. I wouldn’t be in this position.

Now on to the more life-changing situation, Shannon Lynn Moser. Those of you who have known me for a lengthy period of time know how often I change girls. I’ve never had a problem meeting new female suitors and have always been somewhat of a ‘serial dater’. So, after breaking up with Shannon recently, most people just assumed it was par for the course with me. But, it was not…underneath it all I was confused on my own reasoning for ending things. Nothing is perfect, relationships need to be worked on. If I learned anything from my parents relationship, it should be that adversity overcome makes for a stronger relationship. Unfortunately I wasn’t prepared to change my opinion on things and I wasn’t ready work at making things better. Since Shannon returned from Australia last week, we’ve begun the process of continuing our life together. I don’t know if its going to work out, I don’t know if we’ll end up spending the rest of lives together, but I do know that right now I don’t want to be with anyone else. If I can’t get over my own insecurities and work at this relationship, I’ll never be able to make anything work in the future. So, support me in this adventure, because if you don’t I’ll probably survive without it anyways.

I’m now looking at a late July/early August ACL repair surgery, so wish me a speedy rehab, so I can have fucking surgery again. Let’s all get amped up for the world cup, how’s that sound?